so  i haven't written  anything here in  forever because i forgot my  pass code. well  where to start since 2009  when i last  posted here  so many things  have changed but not in the same  sense.. i think  i pretty much  just suck  at life and i've kinda just accepted it .. So  i 've  just  been trying not to stress  over every little thing like i use to ... but there  is  one  thing that  even tho it should've been over months  ago..  it still seem to  be  there  under the  surface..  And  maybe  it  because  i'm  a stupid  bitch  and  even tho this person  fucks me  every  chance i  get.. part  of me  still cares .. so  like  i shouldn't  have  i  went to  her blog  and  read it  to make sure  her  surgery  went well.. only to find that  she  still going on and on  about   Jason .. i wish  she  just  get  a fucking grip and realize  that  the feeling  she has  for him   aren't the  same  for him..  i'm  not saying that  he doesn't  care  because that  would be  a lie..  i also  wish  that  he  didn't  make  it seem  like  i  forced  him to get rid  of  her and  make  me  out to  be  some psycho controlling bitch ..  i had  no problem  with them  talking  until  she  started to  be  a home wrecker...  if   whatever  she  said  happen or  not  i  was  happy   not knowing...  and i  know   how stupid  that  probably  sounds to  most  people  ..  but whatever  that  enough  about   that  situation   i've heard  back  from the LCBO  again  this year  and  they  asked  me  back.. so i'm  pretty  happy about that  .. well beside the  fact  it's  right be hide  the  stupid  bitches  house...  well  i  have nothing  else  on  my mind  right  now.. but i'm  going to try to  write  hear  atleast  once a week  for  now on .. laters