broke(n)

 This week  has  been  one of the shittest weeks  of my life.. i wish i never  realized that she was blogging again....She's not even  around  and i'm  still stressing  myself  out over her  obsession  over my boyfriend. why i'm i like this... i hate it... she  has  every right  to feel and  write  whatever she wants to ...i think  maybe  it just hurts that  i've never  had  anyone  that  cares  about that much ..  or maybe  it  just the fact  that  in some way  it shows  me that Jace and i  have  grown apart..Wow  maybe  we  really have ... i just  really  don't   know  where  to go or  what to  do ...i sadly  don't  know who i am without  him ... i still  love him more  than anything ..  but it's starting to look like  maybe thats not enough.. i  would  much rather him  have  some sort  of happiness  than  to have to  put up  with  me  for  one second longer ....  maybe there  my answer ?!