nothing feels right anymore!

 so this  week  has  been pretty meh .. I've  created  a lot  of  bad karma  on myself ..  and it's  starting to  bite me  in the ass ... I've somehow  end   right back  in my  depression ...  twisted  my ankle  yesterday... so that sucks  because i have  so much to do this  week .. on Thursday  my buildings  getting strayed  so i have  to move the  whole apartment around to get  ready..  the  next  weekend at  work  is   the magic  weekend   which is  super busy...  but  at least on the home front i have Jason here to help  me... but on to another topic... the  whole  Krys  drama  has seemed to stop.. but i  never truly believe that's ever  really over.. the  thing she will never  understand  is that  she hurt  me bad  over the  years... it's hard  for  me to  open myself  up about the  whole thing...  meh   whatever  doesn't really matter  i guess...   in one  of  the   last convo's  we had  she said  that she did  love me ... well i guess  she  just  has a  really  fucked  up  way  of showing  it ...   and i'm  not saying  i was ever  perfect in  that whole  situation...  i think one  thing  that they  all forget is that  i lost  people   in  it all too.. jason , her and  most importantly   MYSELF!