fuck i don't know what i am anymore!

i swear I'm losing my mind..why must i over think every little thing about my life... i hate being a Libra!!!!!!! there's so many little stupid things that are pissing me off lately...1. I'm a fat girl..open your fucking eyes people...i'm so sick of people saying thing like your just being a girl..first of all there only maybe two things about me that even prove i'm a girl or another thing they say is your not that big!!! i'm fucking 80lbs over weight...to doctors i'm fucking OBESE...it's just really pissing me off and i really want it to stop!!! thank you jason for being the only honest fucking person around me!!...2 it's my life...yes you heard me mine!!! so i see that i should be able to fuck it up how ever i see fit...i'm sick of living for other people, things or whatever....fuck all of you...no ofence. 3. whats the sense of staying with someone who you having nothing with really...fuck it feels like we're just roommate..who really secretly wanna hack each other into little cube well the other is sleeping...c'mon really...how can two people that once were so crazy for the other lose that..i just wanna to feel something..anything...because i love my man more than words can ever express!!!