Jason...Past or Future!!!

o this is my life..i'm almost 30...and i'm still living like a frat boy...i'm sick and tired of it...i love how certin people alway put people down...and how there supposly so much better than me....well from where i sit down in and day out i don't see how...i don't know how much more i can take..and the very thought of leave scares the shit out of me..but what else do i do?i can't live the way your taking my life...i need more...just looking around are home makes me sick...but yet i'm sick and tired of trying to make it a home...i'm sick of talking to you about the problem..i'm sick of you passing the blame to me...and accusing me of shit...yes i did some stupid shit in the past....but i told you when i came back that, that was all in the past..i wanna be for real this time..but i guess you don't....tell me what to do? becuse at this point i'm so conflicted...are you going to be me past or are you coming with me to my future!?!?